ITS LIDY!!

8 months since i wrote in here.. i think. anyway. good news.:::

im happy!

i have a boyfriend that i like soooooooooo damn much n he makes me smile like ive never smiled b4. its funny how everything works out in the end. and its tru. if u wait.. good things will come. =]]

o and xmas is coming. and this yr.. u kno wat i want? absolutely NOTHING.
i got everything i need and i finally got some1 to share it with so i mean.. wat else do i need? im good. i got everything i need. so yup.
but i feel like giving this yr.

tell me wat u want n ill give it to u. most likely. if i like u anyway. so go head n tell me wat u want. =]

bye
<3

xanga sux.

rape. y do ppl do it? it causes soooooooo many problems. it ends up into pregnacies and ppl throwin ppl out and ppl gettin into fites and ppl gettin sued. wtf? watever.

gettin my report card soon. yes. very scary. but watever. last quarter. deffinatly Aceing it. i got nuthin else 2 worry about. b4 i just had bad friends and bad influences and too much stuff on my mind. i cudnt concentrate on work. but thats not the case any more.

just a few more months and i can see the baby. im so excited.

spring break. hmm. watever. its not all that fun. didnt do nuthin. um last nite me ruth ryan n regis went 2 the movies. best nite ever! i love em! <3 hehe my boy friend. lol. umm we saw slither and the benchwarmers. best movie everr. 2day i went 2 wisconsin. saw them kill lambs. almost cryed. came home and cryed about somethin else. um 2marow theres the play practice. then friday is dance. either that or movies agen wit ryan n regis to c scary movie 4 and somethin else prolly. no other plans.

found out my uncle aunt n 2 cuzins went 2 hawaii. lucky ppl. i love them. life is gettin harder and harder. i read all these ppls entries and all i read about is drama n not being in love and emo shit like that. yea im like that 2 sumtimes. watever. lifes life.

im not gettin any sleep @ all lately. ugh. 2marow im deffinately goin 2 the beach. alone. to think about everything i lost and everything i gained. good and bad. love and hate. boys and girls.

im happy to say i got her as a friend bak. i can actually talk 2 her about stuff. im lucky to have ppl in my life that care. i love it.

wat i dont love.. diseases. theyre everywhere 2day. yea. the worlds comin to an end. dont even try 2 argue about it. its the truth.

ok so besides the fact that xanga sux.. i think i said all there is to say for now. bye

TRUST
damn. so it allll comes down to the place i started frm. not only did i lose my trust in EVERYBODY... yes. every1. including YOU.. there isnt one person out there that i can trust anymore. n i dont think any1 knos how that feels. to have 2 keep everything inside cuz u cant tell nuthin 2 no1. yeap. itsa bitch.
FRIENDS
ok.. so we were talkin bout this on tuesday @ edge. n jeniffer brought this up. a best friend is some1 u love like a fam. member. that u can trust wit everything n do the most stuff wit that person. a friend is some1 who u hang out wit wen u see them. u can trust them with the little stuff. and an acquaintance is some1 u juss hang with cuz u dont have no1 else. yeap. so no.. i dont have a best friend.  i have some friends but a LOT of acquaintances. yup. thats that.
FAMILY
this past week ive gotten in so many fites wit my fam its scary. 2day i went wit becca in downtown n my mom calls me yellin @ me sayin i gotta go home n take care of my lil bro. n im like im not gun b home till like.. 2 30 n shes all like.. u gun get it n blah blah blah.. wen u get home u betta pak ur bags n get outta my site. n dat was the 1st time she eva said that. i was like whoa. ouch. neva thought itda come outta her. but it did.
SCHOOL
k so juss about everythin in skool is gettin better =]. im goin to all my classes. all them ppl in there r gettin louder/funner so its alll good. im STILL meeting new ppl lol. the freshy guys r kinda annoyin me. juss a lil bit. not all of em tho. heh. progress reports are supposed 2 b comin soon.. ima pray that i get good reconmondations.... however u spell em..  =]
BOYS
ok.. no boyfriend. but i decided thats a good thing. ima stop chasing n juss wait. im tired of goin for all them "thugs" n ghetto guys that dont kno wat they want. im tired of waiting on their decision n then finding out that i missed out on somethin better. guys r juss a waste of time anyway. they use u n throw u out.. like a pair of shoes. they HAVE to get em.. n once they used em for a lil bit they get a new pair. haha. yesssss good one lidia. its the truth tho. yea i got a crush on some1. but SOME ppl think i lead a lot of guys on. so ima stop. i quit on em all. yea. i do. n no. im not guna share nothin else bout no boy to no1 nomo. thats done wit. period. next subject.
THE OLD DAYS
i miss those days. bak wen i went out wit the 1st guy i actually almost fell head over heels for. wen life was easier. and more fun. no drama.. no "friends" talkin bout u behind ur bak. n then lie to ur face. bak wen i had my 1st n only best friend i ever had. we dont talk anymore. i kno y. she doesnt. we dont talk even tho we see each other all the time. i miss her. but thats juss how life is. u gotta deal wit it. fix ur own problems. but the past is in da past. theres no lookin behind... only lookin ahead.

the only thing makin me happy is drawing. nobody knos bout my passions. they never had the time 2 ask. like singing and musik. thats wat keeps me going.